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Canoe wife 'hurt' by lies to sons Canoe wife wished husband drowned
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The wife of back-from-the-dead canoeist John Darwin has said she feels "hurt" for lying to her sons about his death and has now stopped loving her husband. The wife of back-from-the-dead canoeist John Darwin told a jury she wished her husband really had drowned.
Giving evidence at Teesside Crown Court, Anne Darwin denied "putting on" the tears for her family and said she wanted to tell her sons the truth. Giving evidence at Teesside Crown Court Anne Darwin said she had considered suicide as pressure mounted to maintain the lie of her husband's faked death.
Mark and Anthony Darwin had said they felt "betrayed" by their parents into believing their father had died. Mrs Darwin, 56, who denies deception and money-laundering charges, said she felt "hurt" for lying to her two sons.
Mrs Darwin, 56, denies deception and money-laundering charges.
She is accused of taking part in a plot to fraudulently claim £250,000 in pension and insurance funds.She is accused of taking part in a plot to fraudulently claim £250,000 in pension and insurance funds.
Mr Darwin, who vanished from the sea close to his Hartlepool home in March 2002 only to reappear last Christmas, has admitted deception and will be sentenced later. John Darwin, who vanished from the sea close to his Hartlepool home in March 2002 only to reappear last Christmas, has admitted deception and will be sentenced later.
'Grieving sons' 'He's gone'
As Mrs Darwin took the witness stand for the first time on Thursday, she said she no longer loved her husband.
David Waters QC, defending, asked if she still loved her husband, to which she replied: "At this moment in time, no."
But at the time of the deceptions she said she did love him - despite her revealing earlier her husband had an extra-marital affair some years after they married.
The court heard her domineering husband forced her to take part in the deception, which involved tricking their two sons Mark, 32, and Anthony, 29, who were present at the trial. TIMELINE OF EVENTS March 2002 - John Darwin reported missing in the sea off Seaton CarewSearch and rescue operation finds no trace of his bodyWeeks later, his red canoe washes up on a nearby beachApril 2003 - coroner records open verdict into John Darwin's deathAnne Darwin collects life insurance and pension policies worth about £250,000Summer 2007 - Anne Darwin moves to PanamaDecember 2007 - John Darwin walks into a police station and declares himself a missing person Photograph emerges showing Anne and John Darwin together in PanamaBoth are charged with deception offencesJohn Darwin admits deception, but his wife denies the chargesJuly 2008 - Anne Darwin's trial starts on Teesside
The former doctor's receptionist was asked about a time when her son Mark travelled from his home in Hampshire to comfort her and she flung her arms around him and said "he's gone, I think, I have lost him".
She admitted to the jury that she did remember doing that and conceded: "I had to make it look realistic and I was upset. I wanted everyone to think it was real."
Mrs Darwin said before his disappearance her husband joined an internet role-playing game and she caught him sending messages to another player.
She said: "He became rather cagey when using the headphones and speaking into the computer if I came into the room. It was obvious he was in conversation."
After his disappearance, Mrs Darwin said she became aware of a woman called Kelly Steel from Kansas in the US.
She said: "I think he met her through playing this game."
Mr Darwin flew out to meet the woman, telling his wife "he needed to get away".
She said she did not try to stop him, saying: "There was not much point because I knew there was no point in arguing because, whatever John wanted, John got."
Later he returned, having lost £30,000.
She told the jury of one occasion when things had become too much.
"I ran out of the house and I crossed the road to the sea and I sat on the beach looking at the sea," she said. "I wished that John had drowned at sea.
"I considered walking into the sea. I got so desperate but I couldn't do it because of the effect it would have on the rest of the family, particularly Mark and Anthony, and I didn't have the courage so I calmed myself down and went back."The Darwins' sons were in court to hear their mother give evidence
Mrs Darwin denied she was putting on a charade whenever she appeared tearful in front of friends and family.Mrs Darwin denied she was putting on a charade whenever she appeared tearful in front of friends and family.
Referring to her sons, she said: "I could see how hurt they were and I was hurt for the fact that I was creating this deception.Referring to her sons, she said: "I could see how hurt they were and I was hurt for the fact that I was creating this deception.
"I said to John that we should tell them because they were grieving.""I said to John that we should tell them because they were grieving."
Asked by David Waters QC, defending, if she still loved her husband, she said: "At this moment in time, no."
TIMELINE OF EVENTS March 2002 - John Darwin reported missing in the sea off Seaton CarewSearch and rescue operation finds no trace of his bodyWeeks later, his red canoe washes up on a nearby beachApril 2003 - coroner records open verdict into John Darwin's deathAnne Darwin collects life insurance and pension policies worth about £250,000Summer 2007 - Anne Darwin moves to PanamaDecember 2007 - John Darwin walks into a police station and declares himself a missing person Photograph emerges showing Anne and John Darwin together in PanamaBoth are charged with deception offencesJohn Darwin admits deception, but his wife denies the chargesJuly 2008 - Anne Darwin's trial starts on Teesside
Asked whether she loved him in 2003 when she began to make insurance claims, she said that she had.
Speaking on the fourth day of her trial, Mrs Darwin also said she had no sexual relations with anyone before they were married and none with anyone else since.
The court heard she eventually found out her husband was having an affair.
She said: "I did consider leaving him, but I just couldn't see a life without him. I didn't know how I would cope on my own so I forgave him."
Mrs Darwin said her husband turned secretive when he joined an internet role-playing game.
She said: "It was like a virtual world which was played over the internet.
"The people who played it became characters in this world and they had money to buy and sell things and they used to cast spells on each other.
"He became rather cagey when using the headphones and speaking into the computer if I came into the room. It was obvious he was in conversation."
Mr Darwin later flew out to Kansas in the US to meet a woman, who his wife believes he met while playing the game.
'Treated like pupil'
She told the court she did not try to stop him, adding: "I knew there was no point in arguing because whatever John wanted, John got.
"Superficially he would discuss things with me but my thoughts never seemed to carry any weight.
"What he wanted he would get in the end. He treated me like a second-year pupil."
Before Mr Darwin's disappearance, the couple owned about a dozen properties in the Durham area.Before Mr Darwin's disappearance, the couple owned about a dozen properties in the Durham area.
The Darwins' sons were in court to hear their mother give evidence
Mrs Darwin told the court they bought the first home in their property portfolio to make up for her not having a pension.Mrs Darwin told the court they bought the first home in their property portfolio to make up for her not having a pension.
She was against buying further properties after that experience, but said her husband was adamant.She was against buying further properties after that experience, but said her husband was adamant.
She also said she had no idea about the level of debt they were in, and always wanted to pay domestic bills immediately.She also said she had no idea about the level of debt they were in, and always wanted to pay domestic bills immediately.
"He would say 'don't pay them now, wait until the red letter arrives, keep the money in the bank and get some interest'.""He would say 'don't pay them now, wait until the red letter arrives, keep the money in the bank and get some interest'."
Mr Darwin was reported missing from the sea close to his home near Hartlepool in March 2002 and the wreckage of his canoe washed up on a beach weeks later.
However, he walked into a police station in December last year, claiming to be suffering from amnesia.
The trial continues.The trial continues.